When I first read Chrissy was having serious pregnancy troubles, my stomach dropped. Because in that moment I wished and prayed for her and baby Jack. But that moment also held the most painful and paralyzing memories I have, rushing in, unwanted, to remind me just how fragile life is.
Before the day even started, my phone buzzed, “Trigger warning: Chrissy Teigen lost her baby.”
Because this is what loss mamas do. It’s a circle of love and protection that you never knew existed. Our loss and heartbreak forges bonds like no other I’ve experienced. When we were preparing to go in to deliver Constance, I had to reach out to two loss mamas in my life. I had to ask them to relive their own traumas just to prepare me for mine. In the darkness following, loss mamas stepped from their shadows in forces. They validated my agony, they held me when I couldn’t move, they surrounded me in love. No one wants to relate on this level, not even wished upon your worst enemy. But the sheer magnitude of this community is breathtaking. Today has wrecked me Chrissy, I am broken with you, beside you, for you.
Carry your grief, Chrissy. Wade through it at your own pace. We will be here to protect you. Allow John to cry with you; lean on him more than you ever had. And when you feel you cannot take another step, because those days will be so heavy, lean on us. We all wish you didn’t know this pain, but we’re ready to bare it with you. We will relive our pain, and we will protect you with everything we have.